i have been out of sorts. generally. maybe it is the fact that i was shooting with vast expanses of nature, maybe it is that i am tired of waiting; maybe it is that those closest to me are getting on my nerves and vice versa … maybe it is all of that … maybe it is something else.
There is this sense of listlessness, lack of drive, lack of anything — there seems to be nothing that i am working towards, there is nothing that really bothers me anymore, i seem to be in limboland in a zombified state. it is like a bad trip and a bad hangover. There is a part of me that tells me that it will get over and there is a nice bright day that will follow. the other part of me tells me that it will wait till that arrives rather than trying to break out of the zone that i am in.
In anycase, JD tried to get me out — he burst into my room, last evening and told me that the world is sepia and i should take a look at. i hemmed, hawed told him that i wasn’t in the mood…. but the world did drag me out of the cocoon that i have built up over the last 3 weeks. the sunset was gorgeous — there was even a rainbow….
and maybe the world will be better tomorrow
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on Sep 1st, 2008 at 3:00 pm
Its like I am reading something written by myself.
I want to belong something,I am waiting for something unbelievable to happen,I just want to cry my bloody heart out,I am restless but I am not sure what i want exactly!
I am out of my sheltered environment,all alone, to achieve something unbelievable, something like dream! I don’t know why but I feel I am nowhere in Mumbai!
I am shattered that the beautiful world doesn’t exist….
but still every day passes with this little hope-
Maybe the world will be better tomorrow!
Knowing the woman on the other side of the glass is a wonderful experience!
Cheers!!
on Sep 1st, 2008 at 7:59 pm
oh yes, there is definitely a better tomorrow waiting… in technicolor sepia, that too - so hang on, H
on Sep 1st, 2008 at 11:24 pm
@abhivyakti — nice to know the other person at the end of the glass wall. mumbai is slightly intimidating. hold on — you are with good people who will never harm you… and that is where i was at the start of my career…..
@charu — thanks… hope so… life has been sort of odd…nothing to complain about… yet — i can’t explain it, a certain sense of disquiet … me not aiming or achieving - not tangible goals like targets but more important stuff… can’t explain it….
on Sep 2nd, 2008 at 2:24 am
Harini
You expressed my biggest fear!
Perhaps you should take a trip, travel to random places, connect with random people! It might give you an idea or two
~M
on Sep 3rd, 2008 at 5:17 pm
love the pic! if you are grabbing and sharing such lovely moments, it is must be fine……..hope you have more such moments tomorrow and ……..