golden hues

i have been out of sorts. generally. maybe it is the fact that i was shooting with vast expanses of nature, maybe it is that i am tired of waiting; maybe it is that those closest to me are getting on my nerves and vice versa … maybe it is all of that … maybe it is something else.

There is this sense of listlessness, lack of drive, lack of anything — there seems to be nothing that i am working towards, there is nothing that really bothers me anymore, i seem to be in limboland in a zombified state. it is like a bad trip and a bad hangover. There is a part of me that tells me that it will get over and there is a nice bright day that will follow. the other part of me tells me that it will wait till that arrives rather than trying to break out of the zone that i am in.

In anycase, JD tried to get me out — he burst into my room, last evening and told me that the world is sepia and i should take a look at. i hemmed, hawed told him that i wasn’t in the mood…. but the world did drag me out of the cocoon that i have built up over the last 3 weeks. the sunset was gorgeous — there was even a rainbow….

and maybe the world will be better tomorrow

5 thoughts on “Tomorrow…

  1. Its like I am reading something written by myself.
    I want to belong something,I am waiting for something unbelievable to happen,I just want to cry my bloody heart out,I am restless but I am not sure what i want exactly!
    I am out of my sheltered environment,all alone, to achieve something unbelievable, something like dream! I don’t know why but I feel I am nowhere in Mumbai!
    I am shattered that the beautiful world doesn’t exist….

    but still every day passes with this little hope-
    Maybe the world will be better tomorrow!
    Knowing the woman on the other side of the glass is a wonderful experience!
    Cheers!!

  2. @abhivyakti — nice to know the other person at the end of the glass wall. mumbai is slightly intimidating. hold on — you are with good people who will never harm you… and that is where i was at the start of my career…..

    @charu — thanks… hope so… life has been sort of odd…nothing to complain about… yet — i can’t explain it, a certain sense of disquiet … me not aiming or achieving – not tangible goals like targets but more important stuff… can’t explain it….

  3. Harini

    You expressed my biggest fear!

    Perhaps you should take a trip, travel to random places, connect with random people! It might give you an idea or two 🙂

    ~M

  4. love the pic! if you are grabbing and sharing such lovely moments, it is must be fine……..hope you have more such moments tomorrow and ……..

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